Snowy Saturday and an update

My last Doctors appointment was the first one in probably 2 years I did not leave and immediately have an emotional break down over. After every appointment I have the same reaction, with any of my Doctors. I cry. I feel hopeless. I then feel angry. Then hopeless again. Then eventually this level of acceptance …

The morning fire

I've been living in houses heated solely with wood since I was 16 and left home. You'd think I'd be good at starting fires... and the truth is, I actually can be if I have the right things and take my time. I know how. But in the house I often like to rush in …

I am in pain.

And because one of my conditions happens to be Sjogren’s Syndrome, I can’t even cry because I cannot produce tears. I cannot cry out of sadness, or happiness, for emotional relief. I am in pain. And it’s all consuming. I hurt from the tips of my toes right up to the top of my head. …

The woman I was…

I am grieving every single day for the loss of the woman I was and the woman I had wanted to become. I don't want to live in a place of loss, but it's so hard not to be overwhelmed by it. I have done nothing but loose things and little is reminding me of …

This is Sjogren’s Syndrome

So quietly destroying my life and my body. When you first hear about Sjogren's Syndrome, when your Doctor first mentions this odd sounding… weird, disease, you’ll be afraid. Of course you will. What the hell is that? But your Doctor, most of them, will be reassuring. It’s not fun, but it’s treatable and it’s “not …